Just been doing the usual..... thinking....... It's weird how you realize certain things late at night and never during the day. I guess maybe it's because it's calmer during the night.... no more hustle and bustle.... and it's quiet where you can actually hear yourself think. Everyone in life will come upon a time whereby you have to reach a crossroad..... and think... "Which path will I follow?" It's never certain which path is the best or the right one.... you can only make do with the information you have at hand and make the best decision you can. Sometimes it turns out to be the best.... and sometimes it turns out to be the worst. There are times however you do get a second chance and turn around and head back to the crossroad to make another decision. I've just hit a fork in the road.... Not knowing which direction I should take..... not knowing which is the best path to follow. Both paths contain bumps along it.... but only one will take me to my ultimate goal.... So which do I choose? Pick the one with the possibility of heavy bumps at the beginning and possibly reach the final destination? Or pick the one with the fewest bumps along the way and face the possibility of being totally and utterly lost? I know for a fact that there is no guarantee which one will be the best.... but I sure hope to God I pick the one that will make me the happiest! Do I fight for what I believe to be the best? Or stay contented with which ever path I happen to stumble upon? I wish that this situation could be solved with the simple flip of a coin..... but I stand to lose something I find near and dear to me if I do not stand and fight. Even if I do win.... there are still so many obstacles to overcome. I really wish that I never had to hit this fork in the road..... everything was fine.... why oh why did you have to wreck everything??! Or maybe why did I have to wreck it? I don't know what lies in the future.... or what's in store for me.... but given the information I have now.... I know which is the best........ if only I am allowed to choose the path I know to be the best..... or perhaps feel to be the best, anyway. I need some sign and help to which way to go.... I need a road sign from God to tell me what to do. This has probably been one of the toughest fork in the road i've ever come across thus far. Now all I can do is sit and wait at the fork and pray that God shows me the path....... | 
