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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 20:04:39 GMT

Saw an ad yesterday..... it was about victoria's secret.
No... I wasn't drooling all over the girls in the ad!
However, seeing that ad brings one other plus to my new job though!
The company I'm gonna work for works really closely with victoria's secret!!
Muahahahahahha!!! And from what I understand, all their photo shoots takes place at their corporate HQ!
Apparently when you walk in the front door, they have pictures of their models lined up all along the walls!!
Man!! I can't wait to start my new job!!! *Grins*

Finals going on this week..... lots to do.... and need to wrap up a client project. I can't wait till this semester is finally over and done with!!! Counting down!!

Interesting Year....

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 19:17:36 GMT

2006..... it's been rather interesting this year. Lots of changes. Mostly good... but some were bad.
Can't really expect it all to be good right?
Well... let see.... haven't touched my blog in a long while.
Been pretty much preoccupied with other activities

Anyhow.... let's see..... I guess I'll start with the more recent events since they are still fresh on my mind.

Time is drawing near.... and the time to graduate and enter the workforce is coming closer and closer.
Don't get me wrong..... the thought of making money is great..... but not when I gotta get my own house, car, bills, bills, bills, and more bills. Makes me wish that I was working back home. That way I can still live at home and have everything else pretty much paid for

But then again..... the thought of the pay that I'm getting is enough to prevent me from going back home. I finally got an offer for a fortune 100 company. They're huge and the pay is extremely good. Started thinking awhile back..... I knew what I wanted to study.... I knew in what kind of line of work I wanted....... I even knew which country I wanted to work in......... all since I was 14. So far everything this has been on track..... but the one thing that I never thought about and should have was......... what is the target PAY i'm expecting?!?

Came as a shock to me that salary wasn't one of the first things I was thinking about.
I was more concerned about where I wanted to work and in what kind of corporate culture.
The thought of money never seemed to dawn on me.
At least.... not until I was made an offer recently.
I guess it's a good thing that I never thought too much abuot the money I would be making in the future. 'Cos that would've changed my whole view on which company I wanted to work for and would've missed this great company.

I was lucky to be in the right place and at the right time.
Never in my wildest dreams would I have expected to make this kind of money.
It's just awesome!! Now that I have about 6 months left in my collegiate career.... I'm thinking about what goals I have left to acheive.

I've set aims for myself and have pretty much hit most of them.
Albeit at the cost of losing certain things in the process.
But now that I start thinking abuot the future..... only 3 things come to mind......
What house to buy...... how far do I want to climb in the company.......
and what car to buy!!

Hahahah I've never thought about that till recently either.
I was always happy with my Mitsubishi Lancer.....
I guess since I've been through so many changes in my life in the past year.... heck... why not change cars too??!

Trying to figure out... should I get a Beamer, Merc, Toyota Camry, Honda, Nissan 350Z, Nissan Maxima!??
All those cars look great and perform well too. But can't decide what car I want.
Back when I bought my current car.... it was easy. Get a nice four door car that was within my dad's budget.
After all..... i'm just a college student. No sense buying exp. cars and pay a whole lot on insurance and maintenance. But now that I'm gonna start earning my own money..... it's just great!!

I don't know how all these things came to pass.... but I definitely give thanks to God.
Everything just seemed to fall in to place after a rough beginning of the year.
Meeting a wonderful person and getting a job.

Right now I'm half looking forward to graduating and half dreading it too.
Gonna probably miss the carefree life and the possibility of staying up late nights without worries.
2007 Here I come!!! I'm gonna come in strong this coming year!!

Updates updates updates....

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 11:32:08 GMT

There's alot for me to update on this 'lil blog on mine... unfortunately no time today.... was trying so desperately to find some time today to do it.... but I guess i'll do it later on when I finally get the time!

Good bye...

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 22:08:26 GMT

Not much to say about this ..... but good bye....

Freedom to choose?

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 03:34:47 GMT

Hm... read a friend's blog post today.....
Freedom to choose?
Lead to some interesting insights....
We all have the freedom to choose...
and we are all held accountable for our decisions. It was interesting to read his post.
Couldn't help but think about what was said and apply it to my life.

Choices are a part of everyones life.... we cannot run away from it.
The choices we make define who we are....
sometimes the wrong ones are made... and sometimes the right ones are made.
If a wrong one is made.... try to rectify it....
If you can't.... then learn from it and never repeat the same mistake again.

Makes me wish I could rectify mine
Maybe it's not too late yet? Who knows...
The power all lies with God.... he controls our future
HE knows what is best for us all.
In some ways he sorta answered my prayers....
but not all of it....
I'm still waiting to see the last part of that prayer answered....
It may not be sometime soon.... I know it's a process
A process to heal....
A process to build the courage....
A process to love again....

I'll eagerly await for my opportunity to come back once again....
This time... if it comes around again... I know it'll be perfect timing....
God's timing.....
So far things have happened the way I wanted it to.... only at the wrong time.
So I shall wait and continue to pray....
that the next chance that may come around to be of the right timing.

Is It Friday Already??

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 00:31:38 GMT

Wow.... it's amazing how fast the time is flying by... I can't believe it's allready friday!!
So swamped with work that I didn't realise that it's already friday.
Another week's gone by... what can I say?
I've got a client that will not make up his mind on what he wants developed...
He also doesn't have the guts to tell his boss that we are quickly running outta time...
All you IT folks out there will know what i'm talking about.

Why can't clients ever make up their minds on what they want?
Geez.... it's like consumers that can't make up their minds on what they want to purchase.....
I mean I understand they are making a huge investment here...
and not to mention this is gonna be incorporated as one of their product offerings to their clients....
but still!! Com'n... you have a set deadline.... and you can't even make up your minds!

This project has been in the works for about a year now.... you would think it's high time for development.
I wish I could elaborate more on my blog about what I'm doing for them....
but there this little issue of a "Non Disclosure Agreement"
Which means I'm not allowed to disclose what I'm doing for them....
or at least not yet....
Not until the final product is rolled out for their customers.

Another week is about to come to an end.... and I've gotta study for a test.... grrRR!!
Part of life I guess..... Oh well.... at least this should be the only week i'm swamped with work...
The next upcoming weeks are hopefully just gonna be filled with interviews....

Wowwwowowowowowowo!!!!

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 16:06:22 GMT

WOOOO HOOO!!!!!!!
Sorry... just goin' nuts on my blog. Lack of sleep for 2 nights in a row.....
well lotsa things to catch up on.....
Interview today.....
Project due tomorrow....
Need to learn up on a new programming language by myself so I can train my group member....
Slept for 2 hours last night.....
But hey! It's fun somehow! I don't know why!
Listening to tunes and working on my lappy!

Oh that's right... I forgot to mention.....
I'm currently bloggin' on my new laptop!! Had it for about 2 weeks now.
I absolutely love this beast!
It's a behemoth on steriods practically.

17" screen with about one of the best graphics card there is....
Dual Core processor.... *blah blah blah blah*
It's just basically insane!

Yet to max out this laptop though!
But programming on this little monster is just great! Everything runs so much faster now.
Can hardly wait till the weekend!! Woo hoo!!
Big plans this weekend!! But I gotta get through the darn week first!!
It's cool though.... good things are worth the wait!

Back to the grindstone! Need to get work done! TaTa!

Forks and Crossroads....

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 08:33:23 GMT

Just been doing the usual..... thinking.......

It's weird how you realize certain things late at night and never during the day.

I guess maybe it's because it's calmer during the night.... no more hustle and bustle.... and it's quiet where you can actually hear yourself think.

Everyone in life will come upon a time whereby you have to reach a crossroad..... and think...

"Which path will I follow?"

It's never certain which path is the best or the right one.... you can only make do with the information you have at hand and make the best decision you can.

Sometimes it turns out to be the best.... and sometimes it turns out to be the worst. There are times however you do get a second chance and turn around and head back to the crossroad to make another decision.

I've just hit a fork in the road....

Not knowing which direction I should take..... not knowing which is the best path to follow.

Both paths contain bumps along it.... but only one will take me to my ultimate goal....

So which do I choose?

Pick the one with the possibility of heavy bumps at the beginning and possibly reach the final destination?

Or pick the one with the fewest bumps along the way and face the possibility of being totally and utterly lost?

I know for a fact that there is no guarantee which one will be the best.... but I sure hope to God I pick the one that will make me the happiest!

Do I fight for what I believe to be the best? Or stay contented with which ever path I happen to stumble upon?

I wish that this situation could be solved with the simple flip of a coin..... but I stand to lose something I find near and dear to me if I do not stand and fight.

Even if I do win.... there are still so many obstacles to overcome. I really wish that I never had to hit this fork in the road..... everything was fine.... why oh why did you have to wreck everything??! Or maybe why did I have to wreck it? I don't know what lies in the future.... or what's in store for me.... but given the information I have now.... I know which is the best........ if only I am allowed to choose the path I know to be the best..... or perhaps feel to be the best, anyway.

I need some sign and help to which way to go.... I need a road sign from God to tell me what to do.

This has probably been one of the toughest fork in the road i've ever come across thus far. Now all I can do is sit and wait at the fork and pray that God shows me the path.......

The best of things and the worst of things......

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 05:28:01 GMT

This past weekend was excellent!! Had a lot of fun!! Woke up friday to a suprising but pleasant invite to dinner at a friend's place. It was great! She cooked BBQ chicken with homemade BBQ sauce! *yum yum*

It was excellent!! Wish I had taken some pics of the meal. But all in all.... it was great!. After dinner we just chilled and drank and drank!

Oh... and did I mention we went to the hot tub later too??

There's nothing like a good meal, and a good soak after. The water was freaking hot though! All 4 of us had to take awhile to get used to the temp of the water.

Next day, woke up late in the afternoon to a phone call to watch football at her house. So a couple of us drove down to her place and watch football.... and guess what?!? She cooked again!! Woo hoo!! More great food!! *YuM*!

But then.... sweet turned to sour after.... Bama had lost the 2nd straight football match..... Sigh.... and something else happened later which I don't really wanna get in to. Stuff happens I guess.

Went to shoot some pool last night. While playing with a friend of mine..... this other guy just walks up and asks "Is this where the pro's play?" and I just said no.... we aren't really that good at all. And obviously.... my friend had to put me on the spot. So he set up the challenge between me and the elderly man. It was the first time in as long as I can remember being so stressed during a pool match. I won though.... but it was a hard fought match!

Everything overall over the weekend went pretty darn good. With a couple of exceptions of course. Some things just can never be forseen. I do know that things will work out eventually..... I'll just continue praying and trusting in God that he'll guide me and lift me up during hard times.

Clear and fuzzy all at the same time....

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 05:59:19 GMT

Well... things have been going on pretty fine so far.... lots of school work.... lots of things on my mind.... nothing new there I guess. Same old same old.

Thing have gotten really wierd over the past 2 - 3 weeks. Wierd thoughts lingering around my mind night after night. At times it seems so clear.... and then it becomes fuzzy all over again. Decisions decisions =p.

Currently just pondering over things that have gone through since the start of the semester. I wish God could give me a clear answer what he wants me to do. Can't seem to decide on my own. Hoping and praying that God gives me an answer soon to my questions..... Well.... gotta finish of some work now and prepare for a client meeting in the morning. I hate clients that can never ever make up their minds on what they want!!!! GRRRRrrrrR!!!!